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hello , long time no write , how are you ? hehehhehehe

I do not know what was going on inside me. all this is too complicated for me. I do not know what to do deal with all these problems. too heavy for me. I lost people I loved, he left with another woman. and I also experienced many problems in my family, not to mention the issue with national exams that will soon my face.
and I felt a change within myself. God knows what else I do not know the cause, I more often and spend a night out with friends smoking bars my friend. I really shameful deeds. I never intend to destroy myself with cigarettes, but circumstances force me to have to do it ; (
Can god forgive all my sins?